L'art pour l'art (not exactly)

"I LOVE/HATE HUMANITY.


I hate humanity and sometimes it disappoints me that we're all destroying things for worse (some ways of destruction are actually good and, even more, necessary). I love humanity because of the potential it holds. It's right, we're doing things in the wrong way but that's just the way we're lead. For a while, and this is something nobody knows because I was too scared, and I ended up not doing it, I wanted to study Politology. I thought that maybe if an artist lead the way, things would be different. I mean, most of our leaders are lawyers or something like that, and don't get me wrong, there's nothing bad about it. But most lawyers are liars, you know? And to me, that's fucking with the system. The good things we achieve are not really from the leaders to the people, but the other way around. Movements that are good and get so big that they have to respond to them in some way. We have to power to lead the government instead of the other way around, but we don't have the imagination. Everyone wants to be a doctor, or a lawyer, or some kind of professional that will get them to have more money, thinking about the future for their kids or the way they can live better, have better things and all of that... For what?! I mean, what matters really is the present. We lack creativity. We're full of psychiatrists and psychologists, because humanity just refuses to let go, you get me? It's all of this pressure and we want more, but things make people insane and angry and alone, because we simply decide that we want things instead of feelings. We want a new computer, we want a new tv, and a dvd, and an iPod. Using those things, most of the time, and unless you're watching a movie with you bf/gf or whatever, are activities that involve you being alone. And most of the time you don't get the loneliness off your chest. Why? Because you want a job that will help you get money to get more of those things. It's some kind of cycle.

Art, to me, is a way of breaking that cycle, you know? At least, if you feel alone, you can make art to get it out. You don't need it to be pretty and you don't need it to be good for humanity. The part of you that needs to be good for humanity is the one that lets go of all the loneliness making art. You need to make art because it makes you feel better. All human beings should because of that. Because it eases the tension and the bad feelings and the loneliness. Because it helps you to let go of all the rough times you've had and the nights you cried by yourself and the things you hate. Hate is not good. You shouldn't hate anything, because it poisons your soul.

If you *could* (rolling eyes, because you CAN) create anything with meaning, you'd create something that means something for you. Art is not always beautiful. Because beauty is not only aesthetical but, end MUCH MORE THAT THAT, something that's in the mind. You art can be ugly, but beauty is not out there for you to see. It's in you, hidden by all the ugly things that you keep, things that you can make into art. And about knowing, you eventually learn. But from the moment you start making art, it will be the same thing forever. Your style can change, your methods can change... But it will be the same thing because art is a representation of your views. And to you, it will always be that representation, of what you see, how you see it, and what you believe. And that, my dear friend, is very important. You said "I tend to give up on things that aren't easily attained if they're not super-important" but you CAN'T give up art. Because art is very, very important. I guess you get why by now, so I'll stop rambling"


(Un mail que escribí para Noir. Me pareció bueno compartirlo con todos, anyway).